Kitz wonderful life tales

I Is sick

..@y

... HAPPYBIRTHDAY FLY!(31st12th) ...

ok thats done.
Yesterday (30th12th) was my birthday. I spent the majority of it alone, in front of my computer, with a bottle of scotch. *yay* My family appears to have forgotten my birthday.

Chirstmass i burdened my mums dinnertbale for free food and drink, gave my neice i pressie.\

Id have an emo rant about how un jolly this season has been but your all sick of those by now so ill just leave my snail minion to entertain you all.

...@y

Ok the positive train had checked out back onto the phail boat.

SO latley ive been upbeat about things. Namely women.
Its a common story but for me it had a new twist,somewhere along the line i seemed to stop caring stop procratinating stop fearing rejection.
And so i bravley ventured fourth into the world of singles marchign to my own unique tune.
And here to funny thign i pretty much immeidatly got a date with a beautiful english girl i work with quicky and friendly we had a jolly old time until we got gatecrashed.
Long story short i disposed of the gatecrashers and tryed to make a more serious move.
A this junkure(wich was actualy a few days after the first date) she turned me away saying she jsut wanted to be friends.

So i go out with an aim to getting obiteratedly drunk and get over this girl. But before i can get too intoxicated another girl shows up and starts chatting to me. SHe cheers me up and chats alng and a few of my mate rock up and join in, THey both aprently aready know this girl and are competeing for her attention.

I want nothign to do with it and spent most of the night being snarky to the guys while sheilding her fro most of their sleeze, and she gives me her number.
And i try to arrange a meet, and shes dodging it like a campion dodgeballplayer at the dodgeballlimpics.

Now after she has canceled a movie slated for tommorrow and im sitting on my couch being all introspective about this i realized that uppiny my confidence seriosulyt increases the rate i meet women. But my rate of rejection grows in proportion, and now all my confidence is draining away,

You wonder why there are no nice guys? Look to that guy whos your best friend. yep thats your nice guy, only you will never sleep with him, or date him or even kiss him,
But you will mesure all other guys you meet against him.

the other ones the other nice guys, we are all blogging on some sight somewhere trying to decided if its worth one last attempt or not. because we know secreatly to ourselfs
all women no matter how nice, are hypocritical morons.

SO ive beent texting this one girl furiously for the last few weeks, lettign her knwo my interest.
THis went down the toilet yesterday when she told me she wasnt interested in seeing anyone, period.

SO i got out to drown my sorrows with a few mates, snowball effect a few more mates and finaly we go clubbing.
Now theres some strange girl one of my mates brought with him a young kiwi(new zealand) girl.
All my mates are hittign on her like shes the best thing since cheese cake but im "meh about it because im jsut got rejected by another girl. I dont say this this is just my mindset.

So we are dancing arounf the 5 guys with one girl, Im being friendly their all being sleezy and as the night gose on that all defeat each other in dickey leading her her liking none of them.
A this stage im watchign her play pool and she comes right upto me and starts dirty dancing.
"im thinkim oh well a lil fun whatever" and dance with her for a bit and the night gose on for another hour of comical guys cock-blockign each other and me making snarky comments about it makign her laught quite a bit.

end of night comes she comes up and gives me her number before leaving.

so im nto sure how but last night i won a pickup attempt battle (gettign the best resonce from her) out of 4 other much more socialy adept guys.

Im nto sure what to make of it but victory is quite an interesting flavour to me.

MY readback over the last year on my livejounral was rather depressing.
Aparently my new years resoultion last year of not havign this year suck AS MUCH as last years was a sucess, It sucked more.
ANYWAY not to be a whiner(YEAH SURE) I decided to make and actual post instead a a few disparant depressing lines.
Firstly on the good news wicket i have scored satisfactoraly on my TISC exams an will be off to university next year. Proboly not the uni i wanted ot get into but uni is uni.
Secodnly ive grown a bread. I think it makes me more manly didnt think i could grow one, my father cant. ^-^ thats more a random fact then good new but whatever.

End year comming im still single this fact worries me more and more each year, i wont go into either my lonlieness or my need for approval here, ill just say i am horribly vexxed by this unchanging state of affairs.

ALso on the less cheerful notes as im onyl just finishing greiving for my grandmother(we where every close) I am now dealing with the fact my Stepfather the man who raised me might not be around much longer, He is as far as i know dying.

It liek to raise the stakes here with soem good news, sadly there realy isnt any other then the uni thing.

Thata all for now cya folks

failed attempt to aquite girlfriend number 22(consecuative)


first post in months

hello everyone.

blah blah blah

im sick of this shitty existance

also i need a gf.

fuck does it suck to be me.

Ive been away form the internets a few days now
In fact my computer has been turned off mostly.

My grandmother died this friday so ive been very much down of late.
Will miss her.

It so much easyer to say "ah i'll do it tommorrow"
But no matter what it is tommorrow ill end up saying that again and again until the last possible minute.

I need some-thing/one in my life to motivate me or ill never get anything done.

So I'm back, from outer space, i just sho......(stop that stop that its silly)

Just though I update my world for you all.... all four people i know who may check this.

Shit thats happened.
Well since i posted last i ordered a new computer, that has been delayed for 2 weeks now.
This annoys me. Other then that my mate got smash bros which i am refusing to play on anti corporate whore grounds. (I do not play souless games) and have instead taken to finishing call of duty 4.
That took my 4 hours, I loved every hour of it i just wish it was longer it was an intense fun and well plotted game. ***** - five of those things for it.
As always i have been cut burnt and injured above and beyond the norm (enter Kitz the clumsy chef)
though physically my only complaint is my ankle still hasn't healed properly.
I was also fortunate enough to get invited into a DnD game starting next Tuesdays looking forward to it.

Shit that going to happen.
I'm studying pretty hard for the next lot of SAT exams, this time ill pass and get into that elusive university. Though I'm considering changing from Linguistics to Physics and chemical engineering. with a minor in aerial engineering. Though both a relevant to my interests.

I'm writing the third exciting installment in the adventures of Ellora (see previous posts)
though sadly my revision of the other story has been put on the wayside.
and finally
On Saturday i start my violin lessons.. WIN.

anywho that pretty much it.

Ja na everyone

So starcraft is my thing. Seriously i was once so good that i could go weeks on battle.net without loosing a match.
Ive been playing at again recently because of the announcment of SC2 and well ive been loosing.. HORRIBLY

this depresses me

Ellora Merus-a-um

( Story 1, Unnatural Youth, Touched by the dragon spirit )

( Story 2, Exaltation. Saving a family to bid fearwell )</td>

Talk to me people.

You flist as small as it is is never on msn anymore

if you dont have it dl it.

its getting very lonely online

MMM pain killers.
Spent the last 3 days out of it. Thanks to modern medicine

Today i bought a violin
i cost me $700 a Italian made stained hardwood violin.

Now i must learn to play it.

SO ive been away from the interwebz for about a month
Doidn out side things

So far ive gotten fit (i mean manly fit) got my energy levels up, have been studying for a resit of my uni exams and have taken up the violin.

the downside is outside is dangerous
afer recovering from shin splints about 2 months ago and getting my mobility back (shin splints = crippeling leg injury) i have now broken my anckel (also see ANother crippling leg injury)

the outside is dangerous

do not go out there.

also these perscription pain killers rock i now know why House is so unflappable

I'm depressed.

I don't want to go into it, only that its been going on for a month now I'm not sure I'll last till i blow out again. This normally leads to a period of unemployment and or moving city.

When im depressed my mind dies for awhile, i loose a lot of my intellect and reasoning skills.
You may hear from me again this month.

Doubt it

Firefly (and Serenity) Is a cheap cowboy beebop ripoff

end statment

This is a bout me, I a way,
Its more a series of disjointed self pitying rants. That i figure people aught to read if the want to understand me (A little).

( He who never finishes )

( Kitz and partying )

( not a furry )

( Kitz and relationships )

( im a geek )

SO trithne is DEMANDING i go to englang instead of japan next year and try to hook up with miriana
(Hi miri)
While i DO like miri and don't object to the concept i DO object to the concept of traveling half way round the world and putting that kind of pressure "I traveled to globe to see you" on some one i Like and respect.
Trithne cant seem to see my point.
Posting this after clubbing and chatting with trith, will probably regret/delete this tomorrow.
Any how, im going to japan next year NOT england because i value my friend enough not to do stupid dreamy actions.
Maybe one day after uni when I'm traveling the globe is my job and its more incidental then anything.